Vacation

Here I am in sunny Florida. It is gorgeous down here. Florida is the land of sunny beaches, cheap shopping, and endless treats. I started out good. Stocked the fridge with no-sugar added snacks, salads, and yes- protein shakes. Today though I found myself at an outlet mall. I managed to skip the food court. But on the way to Starbucks for an oatmeal lunch, I was drawn into a chocolate specialty store, and next thing I knew I was walking out of the store with a "turtle apple", which was a huge green apple on a stick covered in caramel, pecans, and chocolate. My initial happiness and finding such a huge treat was soon diminished by the surging guilt I felt, knowing that I desperately want to change my life and am considering such an extreme as surgery to do so. These are the times of action. I cannot effectively change my life and retain my crappy eating habits, and nutritional neglect. And I can't afford to mindlessly swallow even an iota. An overwhelming, surging sense came through me to DO something, So, I immediately stopped eating the magical treat that found it's way into my hand at a cost of $8.95 and then I chucked it int the nearest bin. Now I know full well that there are children starving and that throwing out food is a colossal waste, but trust me, neither myself nor those kids need such food. I have to keep my mind in the game even on vacation. Sure, I could throw caution to the wind, eat like I used to because I'm on vacation, and then face re-losing whatever I gain once I get home... OR I could eat sensibly, still enjoy my vacation, but avoid the gain and the guilt. There is a lot to be said for eating well. My mind feels like there is less clutter rattling around between my two ears. When I eat something that I know I shouldn't, I dont enjoy it anymore because I feel guilty and ashamed. But when i watch whatever I eat, I feel empowered and in control. Today I learned an important lesson. It is easy to recover from a mistake. Just chuck whatever it is, and move on.... Or don't buy it to begin with.